I want to kms, I don’t even expect anything I don’t want to go grow up.ok I’ll js be isolated and broke.I want to make friends but at the same time I want to push people away,even my family,I don’t know why I want to torture my self like that.I feel so depressed I can’t clean or take care of my little brother but Ik I have to bc who else will my mum too busy trying to make ends meet.all this hard work is for nothing.I don’t even study bc Ik I’ll have to start all over again if I have to move back to my own country.I can’t even tell the teachers abt this bc they can’t do anything and will send me to a mental hospital.I sh like every 3 days or every day i don’t even k.school is going to start and I’ll be back to feeling even more empty, hollow crying every second.I feel so guilty I hate myself sm.is it wrong that I can’t keep the house clean everyday perfectly and take care of my brother bc I’m js depressed while my mum is working sm more harder and also going through this.pls tell me