I been feeling jealous alot of my sister specifically. And I feel awful about it. I have always been jealous of certain people in certain aspects. But it feels awful to feel this way towards my sister. But I sometimes feel like she out shines me. Like she's pretty and well liked. She's talkative to others and makes great conversations. But I feel like I don't know how to include my self. Sometimes when I open my mouth its like no one notices or cares what I have to say. Its like I'm a child all over again. And then its said that me and my sister are so similar to each other. Which isn't bad but I feel like I'm not even my own person. Like I'm some cheap copy of her. I feel like no one puts any effort into me. She even has a better connection to our parents. I don't ever feel seen. And I just wish I was as good enough as her. So many great things about her that she can't even see. I feel awful feeling jealous of her. I feel like an awful sister.