I don’t want my bf to text me that often. I know that sounds bad and that he’s a bad “bf” but I know the reason why. The reason why is because my ex bf use to do that. He’d text me 24/7, he said he loved me. Called me pretty,beautiful etc. he said so many things to me. And now since he left because I wanted to kill myself. Jesus have I been on my guard around my “new bf” since last August when we became a couple. I told my ex bf about my Irl name the first or second day of us dating. Because of that it took me 5 months to tell my bf my irl name. I just don’t want to get hurt again. I know my current bf would never he’s so sweet and supportive and caring to me but a part of me is scared. Scared he’d leave because I told him I want to kill myself. Or try to. It hurts to think about. It’s like I put my guard up so much when I’m with my bf. It’s like the fear and anxiety never left me and I still have it in this relationship. Even though we are one year officially. I still have that. I.