Everything is getting too hard for me to handle, I'm in my senior year of highschool, I'm trying to lose weight because supposedly my weight is causing my joint pain, school leaves me exhausted everyday and I keep oversleeping, Im in my 2nd week and there's already so much work to do and the stress of graduating and getting ready for college is too much for me and on top of it all I can't seem to draw anything anymore, my artblock has gotten so bad it feels like I've lost everything, for months now I've contemplated just writing my suicide note and going through with it because everything going on in my life is just becoming too much, I didn't even mention everything in this message there's just too much. I don't know what to do, everything has felt hopeless for so long and I have no outlet to help me cope and I don't want to put myself in bad situations again