I know I'm supposed to love my body for all that it does for me. I've already accidentally developed anorexia once and I'm just lucky I wrangled myself out of it before it really really took hold but I don't feel cured. Not really. The only thing keeping me from going back to it is friends that would be mad at me. I want to be physically healthier but every time I focus too hard on it I just get unhealthy. I feel damaged. Like a freak walking around in a shapened body. It's not even I've developed these feelings from looking at people online it's people in real life.
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