Sometimes I don't feel like a "real" lesbian because I don't have the same taste in women as the community e.g. Chappel Roan, Kristen Bell, alt girls, whatever... in fact I am not actively attracted to 98% of women I see. I'm definitely not straight - the issue is that I don't feel "gay" enough because it's super rare to see a girl I actually like, but then when I do, suddenly my feelings are undeniable like they never went away. I'm kinda embarrassed about it in real life; people will show me random "hot" women and I'll be like "uh huh, yeah... she's nice"... but in actuality I don't care that much. But then when I see a woman that I like and I picked out, my brain goes crazy. I've never told anyone this in real life because I'm worried they'll see me as a fake or something.