to my dearest girlfriend. though we didn't hve crazy love confessions, we started as friends, and started to blur into each other. you were my first girl crush. i've had many celebrity and boy crushes and thought i was just straight. you made me question my sexuality. here i am. as a pansexual. you told me i helped you with your sexuality as a lesbian. I just loved the moments when we just held hands and cuddled during recess and hangouts. I haven't said this in front of you but i love you. I hate how i didn't want to hold your hand in public and i regret so much that i didn't kiss you on that crappy ferris wheel. now here i am across the whole fucking country. i should've held you for longer when i still could. i'm starting to forget how you smelled. how your hands felt. you were the first person that i wanted to protect. this sounds corny but i'll choose you in every single differnet life. i hate how we can only talk in texts now. maybe forever. i love you, lint roller. i love you.