nobody cares. It's so humiliating when everyone knows something is wrong with you but can't be bothered to help. My friends know I'm struggling, My family know I'm struggling but it's like they don't care enough to actually know why or to help me. Just because I won't kill myself or harm myself they all think I'm fine but I'm really not. I feel like I'm at the end, that I can't keep trying anymore. Every small spark inside me is gone and I just feel empty. I feel like an attention seeker silently begging someone to notice what's wrong with me and help me or hug me. But they never do and then I feel guilty for being an asshole or avoiding them. I just want this feeling to end so I can be normal and carefree again.