I'm so tired of loving you one second and the next hating you over the smallest things ever, i don't know what is actually wrong with me and i hate this I just wish I was normal, I wish I could feel emotions like a normal person I wish I could love like a normal person and not be so obsessed and dependent, I actually don't know why you still even care about me, you should be sick of me you should leave me like they all did because im such a annoying weird thing I don't even know what I feel anymore I can't im tired of getting annoyed at people I love and yelling but at the same time i feel like you just don't understand me and won't ever understand me i mean I get it I don't understand myself too so why should I expect you to understand me you shouldn't have to deal with me treating you badly just because I got jealous and me treating you the best possible just because you did anything good for me, I dont know why my mood keeps changing so much and why do I wish you would leave me