I fear about the cosmos and the unthinkable fundamentals of how the universe works Having these deep thoughts at the back of my mind that remind me my life i will end one day, but what then? I used to laugh at how simple this question was, how popular it is, but its with reason What happens after death? Im scared its tied with this consciousness of "mine"? That "id" experience everything in an indefinite amount of time and experience every life beyond this one universe It terrified me, that concept. How i couldnt control what could possibly happen after id die The exact reason i live, despite hating it as much Its more than that I hate the concept of me I hate how i cant ever, 100 percent guarantee that im not the only one to even exist, to have a mind of its own These thoughts terrified me because i thought of it as my consciousness forever experiencing everything On its own I dont want to be alone I long for just someone else to be with me