Pressure is taking over my life. Having to get perfect grades, scholarships, top classes, yet, it's all up to me. I can't disappoint my parents. But they dont see what hides behind my smiles. Hidden in the bathroom, silently crying not from pain, but from pressure. From all i'm carrying just to make them proud. Sleeping late at night, waking up early. Losing my appetite. Losing my energy. Yet i still try to show im happy. Trying to show that I dont need help. One time i tried telling my father, Im tired. Im tired from all the programs he is signing me up for that i don't have time to do my actual school work. Then he told me, this is just the begiinning, i need to focus more, i need to continue to work hard. I just sat there. Wondering why I even bothered to tell him. I know he wants the best for me, but I'm out of energy. At night i stare outside my window, zoning out, wondering if i will ever find sleep, wondering if i will ever find myself truly smiling. Its all for my parents.