I hate my life. But i cant be mad. I have an amazing community. But for some reason i hate my life. I hate the way i treat my parents. I hate it. I just want to feel joy again. To feel what i felt like once more. Just one more time. But every time i try, i always somehow end up in my room, crying, thinking im the problem. Im burnout. But i can't show anyone i'm struggling. I dont want them to worry for me. One day joy will come find me again.