Its always me. I make everything worse for my family. Compared to my siblings they respect my parents more. I try. I swear i try to. But its never enough. Have i really failed as a daughter. Have i really lost the trust. Why? I have so much ahead but im not looking foward to it. Im tired. Grew up with lectures, hitting (not anymore), but that shaped me on who i am today. My father would lash out on me. And now i developed that. And it cant go away no matter how hard i try. I talk back to my parents, lie to them, shut the door in their face, lock my door. I dont know why. I feel like im afraid. That im trapped. And i still dont want to ask for help. Im dying inside. I am disgusted on who I am. Im a terrible daughter. Having to use Ai for assignments because im not as intelligent i seem. But my siblings. They are so intelligent. No matter how hard i try, im always the last one. Im a failure. Im a liar. Im a terrible daughter, and sister.