My mental health is so fucking bad it ruins my life, well actually the stuff that happened to me ruined my mental health which ruined my life like for fuck sakes dude. OMG. I don't want friendships anymore i don't want women anymore everything just sucks man. Everything is bullshit my family is shit, i isolate, i say no to socializing, nothing makes me happy anymore, i don't see myself going to a job or college anymore. Like what the fuck man What the actual fuck. Daily life is boring, just fucking gray all the time, like there is no sunshine at ALL. There is just this heavy feeling all the time where all traumatic memories come back and just ruin your day no matter if youre free or working or in class. It just sucks man. How the fuck to deal with this, like what are you even supposed to do? Shooting myself in the head, that's what i can do about it.