I desperately want a do-over. I was violently abused for 17 years in my home before I ran away. I didn't do well in school because I was in fight or flight. I grew up in roaches and bed bugs and coming home to getting beat everyday. They would kick me and punch me and slap me and starve me and it ruined me. I'm expected to function as an adult and I simply don't have the capacity. My only other option is homelessness. I've been working since I was 17 and now I'm 21 and all I want is a break and I can't take it. It's so unfair. I'm not attractive and I'm not intelligent and guys don't even look at me. I'm currently staying on someone's couch while I save up to move from the Midwest to the Pacific Northwest when all I really want is a do-over. It's not fair. I don't understand what I did to deserve everything that happened to me. I feel like I was robbed of so much potential. I'm so sad. It's not fair.