I feel so behind in life in almost every aspect I can't think of besides material things. Ive been homeschooled since 3rd grade but I'm so behind academically it's sicking and now that I'm transferring to a public school for my last year it's really been exposing that idk I can't catch up and I don't want to be shunned. I have no friends. None not online irl or any of my family. While I like be alone I hate being lonely. I hate seeing others my age talk about any type or relationship because I've never experienced anything like it I've never had a falling out because I've never had a friend.. I feel like I'm stuck like this I've done nothing anyone my age has and it sucks I've missed out on so much stuff and because of this all I just want to give up. Maybe I already have though? I'm really dont know anymore.