When I was 10, my dad died and my whole family kind of locked themselves in their rooms and waited for the crying to stop. I needed a distraction, and I found something a traumatized, sad little 10 year old probably shouldn’t have got their hands on. Porn. I got addicted to it, and I would watch it on my unrestricted fuckass pink tablet almost every day. I began drawing women in sexual poses and in lingerie, but they obviously weren’t very good. I slowed my addiction when my brother found one of the drawings and told my whole family at a fucking breakfast diner. I also tried denying I was gay (my dead father was republican and taught us that “gays are disgusting, they need to beg god for forgiveness”) and only realized I was 2 years later, when I was 12. I haven’t touched porn like that in years (I read smut but like, come on dude) but I hate the person it made me be. I’m such a fucking pervert now. I hate it so fucking much. Stay away from porn guys 🥀😭💔