I'm actually going to fail school. I'm in my final year/about to graduate and my mental health is so bad I can hardly do anything and there's just so much work to do, I keep crying at school or dissociating in class I have no privacy at home to be upset or let anything out all I do is scroll or stare at the wall or cvt down to my fat because that's the only thing I have right now to make me feel even slightly ok. Everything is the same nothing changes, I can't rely on my only friend right now either because they need comfort/help but I always mess up somehow when I try to help them and then they get upset/I make EVERYTHING worse I hate being useless I'm going to be alone again and a failure I'm too stupid and autistic to do anything and my body makes me sick it's all the same every day nothing changes but the number of lines and the amount of pressure and I just can't handle it I hate everything.