im so fucking mad at myself, im so mad at him. we have been talking for four years, but then none of us were brave enough to start a relationship with eachother, but we both know we were eachothers, we even admitted it. then, last week we talked more than usual, so i wanted to finally ask him out since were finally a bit older, which is when i found out he got a girlfriend all along. what the fuck? was i nothing to you? do you think its fucking funny to toy me around like that? teasing me after i confront you about it? im not some fucking side chick. im not gonna approach a taken man anymore obviously and im keeping my distance as far as possible. but i hate the fact how i still cant confidently say im over him. i hate this i hate it, why does it have to be me? why the fuck is it always me? fuck this shit