I feel so scared. I have experiences and feelings I wish I didn’t have. So much. That I feel like these expiernrces shouldn’t exsist. And it makes me want to stop exsisting just so these traumatizing things don’t exsist in the world. Ya know? Cuz I carry these memories and feelings and pain and I don’t wish to walk with these things as if I’m the one that brought them into this world. I feel like a freak, I feel unkind and hopeless and afraid . I feel like if I ended myself, all of this would be released. I wouldn’t have to be scared anymore. I wouldn’t have to keep my childhood and my own memories hostage and my trauma at bay. Please somebody help me.
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