I'm an adult I'd rather around other adults when looking for friends. I have 0 desire to have make new friends with people younger than 20. And personally I'd rather them be closer to my really. I'm pretty picky too my life is very weird complicated and I don't think many people could relate to what I'm going through. I have other friends but I feel like if I try to explain what this thing that's bugging me bc it's so spiritual and weird and complicated and relationship idk I already had 1 fill me with doubt in the past. Doubt isn't what I need . Idk what I need. I feel like just broken spiritually faith like relationship like little to no hope in it. I feel like I've practically given yp and I was already extremely low and these have already been the worst 2 years of my life as is.