I can't stop writing thes stupid posts. I've been so depressed and anxious for months. Even though I go to counselling, I feel alone all the time and still so unwell. I'm so lonely and attention starved. I spend all day feeling numb and sick from anxiety. Nobody cares enough to talk anymore. They know I'm struggling but they don't want to help, they can't help. I can feel my heart racing right now like I'm in a constant state of fear. I can't tell anyone how I feel, they don't get it. I keep writing these because I have nobody to talk too. I don't know if it actually helps to spit it all out or if it's making it worse. Sometimes addressing the problems in my head make them too real. And even when I write these, I get so miserable knowing it's only me who reads my own ones. Like nobody here can talk back to me, not that I want them too but maybe just a small part of me wants to be validated, to be told I'm not alone and that things will be okay. I wish someone could heal me.