Everyday I just feel like vomiting I feel like crying but I can't get the tears out , I'll see my mother and think to myself about how I hate her so much, I'll see my father and think to myself how I hate him so much. I have to act like I love them. My best friends the only reason I'm living. And I messed up our friendship aswell, not being able to talk to her genuinely stresses me out so bad that I'm unable to sleep. She's the only one who accepts me for who I am, she's the only friend that doesn't tell me I'm not a lesbian, she accepts me for being a demigirl, no one else knows of this except my 3 other "friends" , I have to hide myself from people cuz damn in the end I'm just my parents 12 year old daughter and I'll get my ass beat if they find out I'm not Muslim and am part of the LGBT. I wanna kill myself, I can't live like this daily, it's so damn exhausting , I'm fat as fuck and I'm ugly, I'm a coward, I'm scared to kill myself. But yeah kids can't be stressed about anything :D