Everyone really irritates me. I cannot love any one ever. I only love the version i create in my head of them, but everytime i seem to talk to them i dislike them even more. They all make me sick. Im so tired. I want to block everyone, but i just cant stop caring. I care too much to admit. I care too much about some stalker. Some people who use me. I think im getting the better hand sometimes, when im usually thrown under the bus. I feel like i cannot trust anyone anymore due to my complete hatred. And i have a big ego to go with it, so everything goes to my head. Im scared of therapists. It really seems like no one will understand, and ill never be able to express my emotions. I feel like an idiot.
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