idk what to do. i moved across the country with my partner only for her to decide she didnt want me anymore and kick me out of our apartment while i was unemployed, leaving me with no choice but to move back across the country and back in with my abusive parents. my dad is genuinely impossible to please and hes already angry at me for not having a job yet when ive only been here 6 days. every time i think ive gotten through to him he proves me wrong. he says awful hurtful shit to me every day and idk how much more i can take. and the only other relative i could possibly move in with is much less financially stable and has a house infested with fleas and bedbugs. im also trans and my parents live in a deep red state. ive been suicidal for most of my life and i know for a fact theres at least one gun in this house and thank god i dont know where it is or how to use it bc if i did i would probably be a serious danger to myself. i need out so fucking bad