I haven't celebrated my birthday in three years and no one has noticed. my birthday was always hell for me. my mom always ended up crying because she was upset that she didn't make the effort for me and she felt bad. everyone else forgot or gave me some cheap flowers while saying "yeah saw these and thought they'd do." i sobbed every year. even ended up buying my own cake and blew out my own candles in my room all alone while singing happy birthday to myself. there was even a year that i shared my birthday with my cousin, and he got all the gifts and cake, while i had one card from my mom. I stopped mentioning it. i stopped making lists for what i wanted, even stopped mentioning what month it currently was, and no one has remembered it since. am i really that worthless? i get so jealous seeing my friends and family celebrate theirs and have gifts and food. i know its wrong, but i wish their birthday would be forgot instead of mine.