I don't know what to feel anymore. I've been through things and i cant tell if im stupid or js weird. school isnt any better. when i was only young i harmed and tried to kms multiple times. i tried talking to others but i was either ignored or js dismissed. it hurt me alot. i cant talk to anyone without hesitating ot completely changing the topic. i wanna be normal. i wanna be someone who can smile through hell. i had a friend i rlly trusted, and she was apart of my friend group. after i shared how i felt abt myself, she then became like me and stole the attention i got. not in a attention seeking way, but i js rlly wanted someone to listen to me. she lied to make my friends forget abt me. she lied to make them judge me. she lied to steal my art therapist from me. then she started to put unwanted attention to me, saying "ooh, Kel, whats that on ur arms?" and then she made me try to kms so many times. im scared and i dont wanna be alone anymore. i js wanna live a normal teen girl life.