I feel so disgusting. I keep masturbating and regret it almost immediately after I'm done. I feel like I have no worth and I've let everyone down. but I really tried to stop. I feel nauseous everytime I look at myself in the mirror. I don't know who I've become but I miss who I was before I knew what porn or sex was. I genuinely have a problem and it wont stop. I feel disgusted and like I don't deserve anything or to have any interaction with anyone because everybody "cares" about mental health until you bring up being hypersexual or cutting yourself. ill cut till there's nothing left of me and have zero regrets because I deserve it. what kind of human being watches porn everyday? this isn't healthy and I feel like a degenerate. I was sexually assaulted at a young age so maybe that's part of my problem? I just want it to end. im so tired of letting everyone down. I know suicide isn't the answer but maybe it is this time.