its hard to write on this site now knowing that so many people are going through worse but i hate myself so much that i genuinely cannot even look in the mirror without feeling gross and im scared to shower and look at myself and i know that there are people with so many bigger problems in the world but i am so done with how i look i genuinely cant and i cant stop eating even after i tell myself that i wont eat and during the summer all my friends wear shorts since its so hot and i just feel so ugly and helpless because everyone around me is so so so beautiful and just skinny and im the opposite and i cant cant cant look at myself i actually cant and im literally so done with myself that it hurts to even go out with my friends because i am just so so ugly and i see all these people around me with amazing bodies and i just cant