I feel so lonely. I used to have friends i text with every day about shared hobbies. I really miss that. I feel anxious. I sleep a lot to avoid just laying around. Hobbies don't cheer me up at all. I was diagnosed with depression a few years ago but no meds worked, been on them from 14 to 18 i think. 20 now. I still think about offing myself daily, i just tell my relatives i feel fine now so they stop pressuring me to try more meds. I hated that they didn't do anything even on the highest dosages and also my parents would constantly blame any negative trait of mine on not taking meds OR bad side effects of meds. I told them to stop but they never did until i was i sobbing- they do that for everything. I hope i don't sound ungrateful, i've had a lot of terrible things happen to lead up to my depression. Permanent things that i just have to accept. I feel miserable with the state of the world and my personal life. My favourite thing is sleep though i try hard to make friends