I was broken up with unfairly and lied to directly by someone I loved for years. Its hurt me for months now and I feel broken. I tried to fix myself but I keep falling down, I feel pressured by my family to move on but I can't. My guy friends think I just need to get a new girl or fuck around, but I can't I hate that shit. I hate asking for help even though those closest ask me to come to them, but I just can't. I hate being alone but I also hate being annoying or feeling annoying when I try to go to others for advice or to talk because why should my problems go to them, why should I burden them with my problems. I saw my ex with another man online and I just broke down, and I keep breaking down like a broken record. Over and over and over I'm crying, sobbing, begging for help that I'm not asking for to others and I feel so fucking alone. I hate the man I see in the mirror and my mind is slowly winning, I'm not giving up but its getting harder and harder each day.