My ex is living her best life. I feel so guilty for traumatizing her. I wish I was there for her during her hard times, and all I did was push her away. I am guilty for cheating on her with my female friend, whom I've had a crush on for years. We were only together for about six months, and I felt so guilty when she found out about my online activities. Me sexting random women traumatized her so much. I still want to feel her warmth. I miss her so much <\3 I need to kms. I’m such a disappointment. My parents stopped talking to me too :/