i feel like i messed everything up with the one person i've ever felt right with. part of me says ill be okay. i want to believe that but i cant. i opened up and barely got a response. what does that say about us. i dont know why im so affected. i wanted us to work through it together. i feel like such a fuck up. i really thought wed work out. i thought he cared. he did, i know he did. why do i do this. right when things are good, i mess it up in someway. please god. i just want this one to work out. i just want this one to last. he pursued me. he showed up. he wanted me. and now it seems as if that isnt the case. and i feel like i messed things up. and he hasn't said a word. why do i do this. why. i thought this was it. i know that this doesnt determine everything. but i feel rejected. i feel like its done. i opened up and i feel shut down. ive never felt the way i do about anyone but him now.. i think. i really like him.