I want want she has. Shes a pretty, funny, popular, a cheerleader and I'm me. Gosh its like a Taylor swift music video. She spent her summer going to the beach, visiting another state, going to the mall buying new clothes for school, swimming, riding horses, eating out every night. I spent my summer staying up, sleeping in, eating junk food, crying myself to sleep, and cutting my thighs. I want to be her. I want it so much that I hate her but then I feel guilty and hate myself. After all, she is my best friend.