To be honest, I feel so bad needing to vent about my own issues that feel so small compared to other people's. I have a very good life, and I know how fortunate I am. Yet I just always feel like I can't feel okay..? I stopped eating, nothing feels real, tired, messing up my talking stages, struggling with dropping a bad friend, can't talk about how I feel to anyone without breaking down into a full meltdown, skin picking again, feeling ugly- you guys know how it is. And for some reason I feel so guilty for feeling all of it. Just last month, 2 of my peers committed, and throughout the process I've had to bear the weight with someone who was insanely close to one of them, and I know it sounds SO silly, but it's almost hurting me as well? Also, the fact that I've come to moments where I was convincing this friend not to do the same to herself. It's a tough subject that I thought I could handle, and I've been proven so wrong. I'm scared she'll do something terrible. But I'm in too deep