I fucking hate myself. Sometimes all I wanna do is talk shit with other people but my walls are so high up it doesn't feel like I can bring them down. What's fucking worse is if I do bring them down I just worry about every little thing I said when in reality no one probably cares. And the problem is I'm so in my head I'm not even listening to other people and just being a dick, I just wish I could tell myself just listen, don't worry about replying, and just wing it.