Im a horrible older sister. I dont deserve a little sister All i do is scream Command Shout And hurt. Why the fuck am I like this Shes everything my parents wanted and im the mentally ill problem child Ive tried to kill myself 8 times Im so close to making this my ninth attempt Im the odd one out It sucks being the black sheep in a herd full of white ones. I spend hours and hours on my phone and my eyesight get worse and i keep complaining but do nothing I am a disgusting human being I want to cut myself until i bleed Its the closest thing i have to death. I love the ocean, maybe one day Ill let myself drown in it.
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