I feel extremely scared of starting my college journey because I feel like my parents are silently pressuring me to do my best. I know that they love me unconditionally but sometimes, I feel like they also want me to prove that I’m useful to them. Don’t get me wrong, of course, I do want to be worthy of the money they spend for me. However, I do not know if I can keep on being academically capable, especially because I am about to study at a university that is known for producing competent medical professionals. I don’t want them to regret paying for my tuition fees and living expenses because I will truly feel worthless if it happens. Another burden adding to my guilt is the truth that I also got accepted into UP Manila with my priority program, but I still rejected it despite being offered a quality education for free because the campus does not have the environment that I am comfortable with. It’s quite a petty reason but I wanted to spend my possibly stressful journey comfortably.