Its weird how my performance in class, my inquisivity, my ability to answers questions right, my creativity, my talents, all of it is overlooked by teachers. I'm always chosen last for everything. Is it my fault I have a soft voice and a calm personality? Something feels fundamentally wrong in me. Like despite trying so hard to come out my comfort zone and making progress, I'm still dismissed by authority figures. I have an incredible fear of not being able to voice myself. I have so much potential. I never failed a subject in my life, I've consistently got really good grades and percentiles. But when it comes to me trying to speak, suddenly I'm dismissed without patience. And then labelled as 'sheltered', 'passive' or even 'detached'. Its like throwing away all my credibility for a part of me I cannot reverse. Even the bad students get more recognition than me. Isn't this systematic neglect? Wish I had the money for therapy and counselling. At this point, its long over due.