I wish I could transition into a man, I'm a very beautiful woman and I'm constantly told that. On top of that, I'm the girl that everyone wants, the girl that everyone wants to be or the girl every guy wants to date (+girls, which is #iconic because I'm a proud bisexual woman). I'm stared out in public, given free food and drinks, let in after closing, the privilege with someone conceited as me never ends. But I get so much push back from others when I jokingly say, 'I'd look so hot as a guy', testing the waters of what's okay and what isn't. They tell me to never transition (they're absolutely serious despite being pro LGBTQ+ for literally anyone else who wants transitions) because I already look. 'very beautiful'. But honestly? I look in the mirror and wish my breasts were x, that my shoulders were broad and my testosterone was higher. Fuck, I want to be a sad man in a Lana Del Rey song held by a taller man that "he has the fire, he walks with it, he has the fire, he talks with it".