I honestly really do hate myself more than life and that’s a conversation nobody is ready for. I’m aware of the things I do wrong and the things that need and I could change but I won’t take the steps to do so , I mean I do but it’s like im inpatient I don’t wanna feel like this forever and I shouldn’t have too until im healed yk.. I have a seriously bad addiction to weed I try to smoke everyday every time I get un high my body relies on it .. and im scared weed isn’t gonna dk it for me anymore and im gonna end up like a druggie in the st .. I love weed like a lot anytime I get money that’s the first thing I buy instead of clothes and things I need and I am aware of that I want to change and stop but it really is so fkn hard.
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