sry, nothing actually bad, but I want to get this off my chest. been a bit of a hopeless romantic, but too unpopular, distant and introverted for a year 11 to get anyone's attention. school musical comes around, and I start talking to some of the backstage crew, these really awesome, nerdy, introverts. one of which, i knew of, and barely talked to before, but struck up a friendship with. musical ends, and we're still going strong. I so often abandon people after I lose an excuse to be talking to them, terrified to seem like I'm clingy, so this was rare. we start chatting most days after school. she lives close enough to walk home, but waits until my parents arrive to actually leave. she is an INSANELY talented artist, and so funny. like, non-stop, hour-long conversation, and so goddamn authentic and real and herself. i think i really like her. i don't know if she wants just this or more. I want more, but... i'm so scared to lose what we have.