I'm so exhausted, and it's showing in my body. I tried to be happy and positive this summer, but all the pain I've been holding back has turned into a serious illness. Every part of my body aches. I have trouble sleeping and eating. I feel exhausted all the time. This physical pain is even preventing me from doing one of those bad habits that used to distract me from sadness. I can't hurt myself to feel in control because I'm in so much pain. Underneath all this, no one notices. I tried to hold it together for a while, but because my family kept pressuring me, I told them I wasn't okay. My dad said, "Just take a painkiller," and my mom said I was faking it to be more evil. I don't even know what that means, but I'm completely worn out. As I write this, I feel like my head is going to explode from the terrible headache, but what can I do? I know I'll keep going and I'll be okay because that's what I always do. I don't want to break down.