its been around 5 months and life has been getting harder and harder. all my friends cant even help, even thought theyre going through the "same thing" as me. i cant eat properly, i cant even drink water without having the need to throw up. ive been doing sh lately too... its only with a pencil, and nothing else cause im scared. im still in middle school, but the thoughts have been getting worse. the voices in my head keep telling me that no one will help. its just me, myself and i. im not getting help though. even if im at the verge of doing it, im never gonna get help.