I hate my life. I hate being dependent financially. I hate that our family is financially unstable and extremely dependent. I am thankful for the people who are willing to help us of course but these people who help us are also human too, I am drowning in the guilt of having to ask them for financial support because my parents couldn't afford it. And it's not like it's their fault, my father only graduated highschool and works with minimum wage until he was released without any retirement fund secured while my younger brother and I are still at school. My mother is the breadwinner of the household now, but her salary is enough only for our food. I feel guilty wanting things, I feel guilty wanting my parents to be better, I feel guilty hating my mom settling for the lesser end of the deals because of her faith in her religion. I hate myself for blaming my parents, my family, their views, and their god. I've strayed too far from my faith now as well. I wish we were better off financially