Rant #11398

I'm scared. Of death. Of myself. But I also, really really want to just disappear. Nothings truly going for me. My mother does not care enough to check on me. I feel like, everyone would be better off without me. And I feel selfish for thinking it. I think, maybe if I had the courage to die, it'd show that I at least had some courage to begin with. Yet instead I'm just, sad, stupid and useless.