I have an older sister, and im extremely envious of her. Shes so pretty, she’s insanely pretty. shes skinny, petite, big 🍑, small 🍒, 5’0 (not growing anymore) feminine, hourglass, no to little belly fat, able to diet and lose weight, responsible. Its so hard feeling pretty next to her, for context. Im 5’1 (still growing), small 🍑, large ribcage, small 🍒, huge waist, huge rib cage, huge thighs, huge everything, i have thick hair, and nothings pretty, i hate it. I cannot wear anything that looks cute and feminine because im so insecure, so im more masculine. And i dont wanna be masculine. I dress baggy cause i hate my body, i never let my mother dress me in dresses, tank tops or anything skin tight. Any time i see her, i think about the difference, of our weight, looks, just everything. And i hate it. So. Much.