raf, no one is gonna read this except myself. reading our old emails when things were okay makes it surreal that we're no longer tgt in today's chapter. heard that u moved on and it is very understandable, bc u deserve nothing but happiness. and im sorry i couldnt give that throughout the relationship. im sorry for being avoidant like i used to, but u know how i am kan.. bc we were basically grew up tgt. whatever happened in our past, i never hold grudge against it, against u. u were great, we were great, but i never werent. i dont regret that us happened, or even leaving u. i know i needed this. Allah already set it from the top, and me as his hamba, i have to accept it. ure being happy is the most thing i ever wanted. bc u so so so deserved it, unlike me. im sorry for being the worst yet the longest gf u ever had. im doing okay, but sometimes when the reality hits me, theres nothing i can do. i moved on, i dont love u anymore. but im so relieved, ure doing great, my best friend.