I had to add: Maybe it's dramatic but it's gotten to the point where I can't even see myself ALIVE in the future. Legit, I can't see myself as a working adult or even just an adult. I MENTALLY cannot see myself. I have so many things I wanna do but it feels like I butchered that chance with the choice I made. It's bad enough that I'm doubting myself but people around me MY OWN FAMILY keeps saying I should have done this and that. LIKE WHY AM I DOING EVERYTHING WRONG..