i haven't even entered college and i already feel like a failure. i might have chosen the wrong course. seeing everyone else choose practical courses when i chose a non-conventional one feels like i've set myself up for failure. i mean sure i can still find a job with it but competition is high and i'm starting to doubt my own skills. maybe they're right, maybe art should have stayed a hobby. i'm not cut out for medicine or math. i can already see myself struggling while everyone else will earn money and leave this shithole of a country. i feel even more like an egotistical dipshit thinking "i could have done that" when i see others who weren't even trying to get good grades and just wasting their time at school do a "hard" course. like if i weren't such a coward maybe i'd be a doctor or smth in the future. TLDR: I'M FUCKED AND I HAVE NO FUTURE (literally)